ANOTHER BIRTHDAY

The first day of the rest of my life - UGH - YIPPEE YEA - ugh... I know "it's better than the alternative!"  Still - I consider my birth years like the New Year - a chance to start again but at what that's my problem.  Start what?   Accomplish what?  I want to write two books that continue to sit unwritten in folders of notes and attempts and and and...

I want to finish a scrapbook of my life and the girls that sits on many shelves in many not done yet scrapbook albums with boxes of pictures here and there and heaven knows where.

There is the stamp album of 40 years that I know my kids don't want or care about, so maybe I could make a few dollars for fun money.  Then I think of getting to the box or trying to evaluate it all with catalog values or the really hard part of finding a stamp collector that still exists, who would want to buy it. Seems impossible, so needless to say that has been put off for years not months.

I do have a very blessed and abundant daily life and it never ceases to make me happy.  Went to a church meeting tonight and when someone mentioned it was my birthday, Pastor ended the meeting with everyone singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me.  

I do want to make the remaining years the Lord has in store for me to be totally surrendered and used up by Him and Him alone and His work and His will and His plan for me NOT MY OWN.  

So in saying that then I must end with saying this - Dear Lord help me to be obedient, available, open and listening for your still quiet voice.  Simply said - Dear Lord HELP ME! Amen.